I'm not going to lie to you guys, this month has been rough... Well, I got to do some cool things like hang out with one of my friends on the fourth of July and stuff, which actually in a sense made part of this month fun along with some other things with longtime friends and such. And I finished my online classes, almost acing all of them (which is good, I'm actually doing good in school now lol). The thing is, though, I'm really in a place where I've needed to reevaluate a lot of shit in my life. This is a bad month for our family for a couple of reasons.

   Before July, we were having the time of our lives. We had gotten to go see Sea World in San Diego, along with cruising the entire coastline along the docks. The trip was remarkable and breathtaking, as we never get to do anything like this very much. We were swimming at the beaches along San Diego, as well as in Santa Monica and around LA, as well as Del Mar. The waves were so soothing and serene, and we all (the seven of us, including my older brother) got to have the absolute time of our lives. The truly sad and honestly eye-opening thing I've ever seen is a baby humpback whale dying on Santa Montica Beach, and there was nothing they could do to help it. Overall, though, we got to really enjoy our time there and truly soak in the entire beauty of the sea. It became painful when they came back just for us to say goodbye no even two days later.

   Afterwards, the thing that unhinged me the most was my little sister's birthday and reminiscing when the three kids were here. We can't see them for longer than a month throughout months every year, and being apart from those kids almost feels like being without parts of my soul. You know, for the longest time I thought the one thing I wanted to do was get rid of them, but now it's like I want them here more than anything else in the world. I'm partially drained by them being gone, and it probably explains my sudden return to procrastination.

   The 21st of this month is when my mom died exactly two years ago, and it's still so painful I can't even describe the feeling in words. Wounds like that do eventually heal, but they leave behind scar tissue that always acts as a faint reminder. Regardless, I've almost found peace with the reality of it, as I have to believe that she isn't truly gone. In fact, I think she's probably proud of how far I've come. I could do more to get better, but nevertheless she would still love all of us the same and I want to make her proud. I no longer want to be upset and hurt by her absence, because maybe she's right here with us everyday and we would never know.

   Despite every single one of these facts, however, I have really started to actualize a great deal of my life, and I feel that I'm the one in control now. No matter what I may have failed to do in the past due to everything stopping me, now I feel that there is nothing that can stand in my way. It's funny how once you take it from life for years that you begin to stop giving as much of a care for certain things that don't matter to you. haha More than anything, though, I have learned much and I've already come this far. What's stopping me from constantly becoming a better person every single day?

   I love each an every one of you, but if you're in any sort of rutt or you feel like you have nowhere to turn to, I want you to do something for me. I want you guys to all find at least one truly redeemable quality within yourselves, and you can even comment it if you really feel like sharing it. Then, make a list of things that you want to promise yourself. These can be general statements or really anything you wish to accomplish with your life, but these have to be things that you are willing to solidify and keep on top of. That list right there is the very start to your mission statement, and the rest is all up to you. Map out your lives, and make them the absolute best that you possibly can.

   Thank you all so much for reading, I appreciate the fuck out of everybody who's always supporting my work and promoting me. Honestly, you all mean the fucking world to me, and I would be nothing that I am today without any of of you. I also intend to work on that animated pilot I've been blabbing about, so look out for more stuff involving that as soon as I'm able to get my shit together and create a little sneak peek for all of you maybe? Idk, but hopefully there'll be more art coming soon along with some new tunes, so stay "tooned" folks. And HOLY SHIT, THE SUPPORT THAT I'VE BEEN GETTING FROM FRIENDS AND FANS ABOUT JACKIE SIMPLE ALONG WITH A LOT OF MY NEWER ART HAS BEEN ABSOLUTELY AWESOME, AND I JUST WANT Y'ALL TO KNOW HOW MUCH YOU TRULY MEAN TO ME. I love you guys so much, and you'll hear from me in due time.