Hey, everyone. I feel very differently about things now. Not in the sense that I'm an entirely new person, rather, I now know what's wrong with my situation and what I need to change. The main reason why I was so sad beforehand was because I was blind to the point of missing the whole problem all along. I don't have horrible problems, especially since my issues will only make me a stronger person in the end of it. Let me start out by saying what has happened to me this past month.

    I went to a weekend event called Camp Anytown. I know what you might be thinking, "Wow, one of those 'youth camps' that are all lovey dovey and sunshine?" Not exactly. To be fair, it was so much more than the singing, dancing, and possitivity. The things I experienced at that camp should be experienced by anyone who has vision, and every person searching for the answers they need to make change. They release the tension to gain your answers, and from there, they can easily tell you a non-judgemental way to solve the small issues that lead up to the bigger ones. It's not just a camp; it's an incredible experience that so many more people should have the priviledge of seeing for themselves.

    With that, I've had some revelations about my own life. For example, I fear a lot. This fear can go as far as anxiety most times, and I do nothing but force myself to lose touch with others. Not only that, but I've learned that the opportunities are short lived, but life is so much larger than we may put the impression on. We have days, weeks, months, and years to make decisions; which is plenty enough time to come up with solutions. I've found memories that I was worrying so much about finding that I have finally let myself see; because I didn't worry.

    That's another thing. The very thing that has lead me to this hole I've dug myself into is worry, from the very beginning. Rather than living my life, I've been thinking about it; a whole lot. Months and years of my life have been wasted because I've overthought everything. I finally understand so many things I was only considering before, and I'm willing to give up what seemed so important before for something so much greater. I'm no longer investing completely in others; it's time I took a little time to myself to situate myself and fix these issues.

    Having said that, I have drawn; in fact, very much. However, I will most likely not be posting anything this particular month. Why? The stress of trying to keep up with my To-Do list is only going to continue growing if I keep susepting myself to the very addiction that has brought me to that somber, limited point. I need to give up DA for a little bit, and clear my head. I have to get that thought out of my mind enough to where I can clearly think about what I want to do and what I have to do.

    If you can keep in touch, that would be wonderful. Facebook, Skype, and other places I shall still visit on occasion. This shall not be permanent, but it will be a considered hiatus. I have to change, and being a fun adult will never happen unless I can also think like a serious adult for a bit. I apologize greatly, but sometimes people need space. This has been a weight on my shoulders, and I just need a short break. I love each and every one of you guys, but I fear for many more things now than I can handle. Please keep in touch if possible, and have a great month!

Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart,

Gabe